On the Road Again....Story of My Life

Ok, well I'm not on the road in a literal sense but I did just finish my first week at my new job after being off work due to an injury I sustained a while back. Let me tell you, it feels great to be back working again. For those of you who don't know, I have had a real shitty year. It all started when my ex left me back on September 28th of 2010. She didn't just up and leave me though. However, she decided to drag it out, make me feel absolutely worthless and made me do a myriad of things to try and win her back. this went on for about three weeks. The emotional stress this caused me was unbearable. Having to go into work not knowing if she would be home when I came back or not. I really did try everything to keep her, I did. I went to church to ask for help and guidance, I spoke with couples counselors and tried talking with her. None of this worked. Finally on the 19th of October, She told me that she wanted to leave for good and never come back to me. I was devastated. A sense of overwhelming terror shot through my body as I sat hunched over  on my couch with my head in my hands bawling like an infant cut loose from its' mother. I have been with this woman for almost six years. We often spoke of getting married as soon as we were able to afford it. But this, this was never supposed to happen. I asked her why she was leaving me. She never told me. To add insult to injury, my cell phone was shut off only minutes later. I was so upset that I wound up driving myself to the nearest T-mobile store and hopped the curb in my truck as I pulled into the parking spot closest to the entrance. Parking only inches from the large glass windows that make up the front of the building. Stares were given from every directions as I stormed in demanding to speak with an associate capable of correcting my problem. They accommodated me immediately, even though there were others ahead me. The shaken man behind the counter quickly pulled up my account information only to tell me that there was not a problem with my phone but that the bill reached $1,394.89 so it was turned off. Again I reached another level of anger I myself I have never even witnessed. My ex who was also on my phone plan somehow managed to rack up the bill $1,200 in less than three weeks and stuck me with it. Can you picture this in your mind yet? I was furious! I pulled out my credit card and paid the ridiculous amount and stormed back out of the store, approached my truck, got in and laid down some rubber as I drove away. I drove home, yet it didn't feel like home anymore. It still had all the walls and a rood over my head but I was the only one there and knew that I would be for Lord knows how long. I rested, and woke up around 9pm so that I could get ready for work. At the time I was the over night manager for the valet company that I was employed with. I showered, got ready and out the door I went. I arrived at work shortly after 10pm. I had just clocked in when my cell phone rang. It was my oldest sister, Valerie on the other end. I thought she was calling cause she knew that I was awake and would be a work with nothing to do and that she would be asking about my ex. Sadly, I was wrong. Over the phone I could tell right away that something was not right by the tone in her voice as she was trying to hold back the tears. She had called to tell me that our father was in an accident. I responded by saying, "Oh great, what happened and what hospital is he at and I'll leave work to meet him." But then she said the worst five words ever to have entered my ears, "No Daniel, he is gone." I am not sure what exactly I did next but I do remember having another break down of uncontrollable tears and the worst stomach pains of my life. I could hear the tears come rolling through the speaker on the phone as I raised it back up to my head a few moments later. Somehow I was able to ask what had happened and she told me that he was hit and killed by a semi truck driver as he was crossing n a cross walk. I knew my life would be different from that moment on but didn't know how. I ran out of the office searching for the other manager that was there and somehow was able to communicate to him that I just received news of my father's death. He hugged me and told me to leave right away and be with my family. I did just that. I ran down to my truck and could hardly find the ignition. The truck roared to life as I pushed down on the accelerator and bolted out of the parking lot. I began driving as fast as my beat up Ford would let me but then another wave of, "What the fuck?!?!" hit me again and I slowed to a mere crawl. Finally, after what had seemed like an eternity I made it to my mother and sister's house where I was greeted with a hug from all directions and more tears. I can't really recall what else happened that night for it was all a blur to me. I thought that my life couldn't get any worse, but over the next few weeks and months I was put to the ultimate test. My world was turned upside down over and over again. So in short, my ex had left me, my phone was turned off, I lost a alot of money and my Father was killed all in the same day, and this was only the beginning. Please, if you are reading this, stay tuned and follow me because I will be continuing this story on my next post.